Well right now in light of recent black friday events in the online poker world my run has come to a startling halt. but a storybook ending to poker may be only the real beginning. Hopefully introspection will find my initial reactions, of fear I would never see my bankroll, to regret of not maximizing my playing potential will help me grow as a person. And even more hopefully, online poker can continue to be a beneficial part of my life whether on one of the remaining eligible sites, or in the event it becomes legalized, a return to pokerstars.
The immediate and starting events definitely threw me for a loop, and kind of ended up in a lasting depression that I have finally gotten over. It was like someone punched me in the gut right as I was about to lunge into a second gear. But such is life, and the only thing I can try to do is become a better person in whatever ways I can conceive.
I hadn’t danced in weeks, until tonight, putting on lbs at a saddening rate. I promised a high schooler I would make them a video of myself dancing, so I was able to put together a minute set of slow ass movements that almost pain myself to watch on replay. I must use this as motivation to work harder to get back into shape. this process will probably take at least a month, but this first week will be the most telling. momentum is the key, and only I can provide myself with it to break the intertian(definitely not a word but sounds smart doesnt it!) state I have fallen in to.
I have slacked off in every aspect of life. Sloth, my greatest sin, must be shed. Whether I have the tools is not the issue. Whether I can maintain the desire to improve is another thing. But I have started today, and only I can turn myself slowly into a person of action, a person of today. fuck tomorrow, I must strive for today.
AC
Well April is Upon us, and I have just been through a whirlwind of poker and fun the last couple of weeks. I bet my friend 100 dollars I could play more hands of poker than him for the span of a week. He crushed me. But In doing so, I played over 30K hands of poker, reinvented my plan to win at poker, enjoyed myself for once, playing almost half of the hands on PTR listed under my name since they started tracking hands in late 08’.
This was all in a week :D
I started at .5/1, playing 12 tables which proved a rocky ride and somewhat profitable, but I felt a little more pressure with a bankroll hovering between 30-40 buyins while playing 12 tables. Plus I was already losing ground to my friend playing a miserable 24 tables at a time of lower stakes.
So I moved down….for the first time in years. But considering my pseudo-retirement/sabbatical/laziness, it was definitely the right thing to do. In doing so, I ran at over 7BB/100 while playing roughly 16-20 tables unless I needed to play less because I was playing some donky freeroll/mtt. And it was comfortable. I didnt feel like I was making too many poor plays, or at least if I was making a poor play that it was at least somewhat near marginal and/or a hand I could learn from.
In doing so, I started realizing how many FPP I was racking up. at least 15/hr in fpp, plus actual winning, while zooming past the average fpp necessary to become a supernova. Even with a week off and a trip to texas I am maintaining a lead on the pace by over week right now.
So I’ve done the calculations. I have extrapolated the extrapolatable. And I’ve come to a conclusion.
18 Tabling for 15 hrs a week until work is over (June 10~), even if I run break even(which seems unlikely unless I start playing worse or running worse), I can make supernova around when work ends, even taking a week off in may to recollect my thoughts, and probably do a lot of relaxing and studying hands I play until then.
So #1 Goal: Supernova by June
Poker is hopefully revitalizing in my life and can give me some more options of what I am able to do in the future.
The other 2 facets of my life that I hold most dearly, are my quest to become a high school math teacher(i currently work at a high school) and to stay fit through dancing (while hopefully improving). With that being said,
Goal #2 Get back into shape and work out at least 4 times a week.
Goal #3 Get my application in for a teaching credential (due june 6th)
Poker has slowly been gaining steam as the 3rd wall to my triangle of life, even though it used to be the main attraction, or at least second to school. Taking so much time off gave me some worries about diving back into the game so heartily, but I have all of the skills(mostly discipline) to continue to have success in this area. I am very lazy about blog updating, so that brings me to my last goal.
Goal #4 Post once about work, dance, and poker each month.
Also 1 more post for goal updating and I should be right around a post a week. I need to show more determination in blogging, which sounds stupid, but it gives me more focus, reminds myself of what I am lacking in my separate quests, and helps me reflect to try and improve in areas of my life.
Thats all for now, 2.5/15 hrs done for the week…already playing catch up but I know I can make it.
AC
niub:
Anyways, enough of being a curmudgeon. This is probably why most of you follow this pos blog anyways.
robots = no soul = ginger
yay transitive property
I’ve been playing online since 2004
I have played pretty much all games for a while, at least
NLH, LH, O8, PLO8, PLO, Stud, Stud 8, Razz is disgusting but ill play it in HORSE, and random scribblings in triple draw.
i really have only played up to 5/10 limit, and 1/2 nolimit/pot limit.
most recently I have been trying to grind smaller tournaments(with varying amounts of success) but the previous couple of years I pretty much played 6 handed PLO.
after last week’s winning I thought I would break through and win a tournament.. turns out the poker gods had other things in mind. after a myriad of beats not even worth talking about and losing every coinflip possible, while bubbling every possible deep run, i am pretty beat up right now.
lucky for me, my bankroll can take it, but it’s incredibly ridiculous how i won 4/6 days last week and so far i have lost every single day this week. six in a row including the last day of last week amounts to a colossal loss, but there is not much I can do except keep grinding out. so far this week:
12 Cashes in 86 Tournaments (14%)
3 Final Tables (3.5%)
2nd/332 in a 4.4 PLO
8/180 in 2 different 12 turbos.
Other Cash finishes: 34th, 43rd, 32nd, 85th, 47th, 115th, 113th, and 130th and some other crappy cash
Notables: 0/4 after winning 1st table of double shootouts this week
10th in a final table only tourney(losing 4 all ins in a row)
Finishing last session losing six straight coinflips including busting the 5r.
So the short and thin of it, I have been getting absolutely mauled. Every push has had horrible timing, every caller has been lucky, and only great mental fortitude and hopefully a change of fortunes will send me in the right direction. Either way, I will devote the rest of this month to insanely playing tournaments for 50 hours a week, but if the losing streak continues for too long I will have to go back to cash games.
Funk Ferret - I Gotta Funky Thing
If you don’t use soundcloud, you are blowing it. So many free quick legal downloads including sweet as sixty minutes of funky breaks to get down to and help discover more beats.
Notes from the Ferret himself:
Mashup of Duncan Lamont’s Funky Express with Super Lover Cee & Casanova Rud’s I Gotta Good Thing. Extra drums / scratching etc..
monday - final table(8th)
tuesday - final table(3rd) + 3 other cashes
wednesday - final table(2nd) + 1 cash
thursday - dbl shootout win to the mill, +1 cash
friday - ???